30 August 2010

arrrghhh!! dam the feeling!! it's like i like her but...she just seems like a flirt? always seeing her with another guy..or am i juz thinking too much? well i get easily jealous... rare for a boy to get jealous huh? if a boy gets jealous for a girl that he loves, the girl is lucky. thats what i read... dammit

argh shit this feeling..seriously......i dun wan to be emo about HER! I need a distraction from her PLEASE! something that will make me stop this feeling for her!! today, no wait it was yesterday, the team's first match! we lost 4-5 :( the field sux!! it was raining! and the field was so muddy everyone couldnt play their best. dam the other team's goals were all DAMN TYCO! BUT we have to keep training!! training until we get better!! ofcourse there will be losses, but we will learn from those losses and become a better team! i know something that can make me stop thinking of her, GYM. but its impossible to gym everyday, every single hour..another is to go out with frenz but they are all having exams n not free nowadays.. siannnnnnnn. I hope the girl that gets together with me stays faithful becuz i know i will. o btw. I HATE FLIRTS

3:45 AM im in the AIR :D.

HI! :D ok im updating again! not bad im kinda updating more than last time. xD
wat to write wat to write.. hmm... nt much happened these few days..
OK! i know! on the 21st! celebrated WH birthday! :D loll not really a celebration but! the 5 of us made it good! walked around orchard and dhoby ghaut! O YA SOMETHING BIG HAPPEN! BUT CANNOT TELL! BETWEEN THE 4 of us! too bad shawn didnt see it. tsk tsk missed out hahaha! went to orchard plaza, missed having tuition there. missed my tuition mates, AMANDA especially haha! missed you! so fun that time although i hated a maths..keep getting scolded by teacher tat time lols. REALLY MISSED U ALOT :)told u alr. Went to the highest floor of orchard central..so nice to chill there! but there are so many couple arnd that time we go,make me jealous lol... saw a couple making out right in front of us! hahaha! 2 of us purposely went near n stare at them xD.
orchard central..that place reminds me of you...:( i can still remb clearly. o well let it go. :D OH i forgot to mention i love TOWN AND PS! why? cuz there are alot of chiefs there :D. SAT went for tkd. climbed 30 stories in 7-9 mins if im not wrong. then did some lunges etc.. went gym alone cuz the usual pple were not free at the time i am. NOW my leg is hurting like hell! im like literally limping to get to the kitchen, to get to the living room, to get to the toilet..arghhhh i hope it is all well before thurs! thurs GOT TRAINING! O YA WED ALSO! DAM DAM!! ok thats all.. nothing much to say :D loserfei! i updated ok? :D

1:01 AM im in the AIR :D.

HI PEOPLE! no wait there's very little people reading my blog since its a secret. :X ok anyways yo!! xD it has been a tiring week, seriously. tough trainings for straight 5 days. mostly soccer. first day(thurs) of soccer training was still ok.. everything went well my legs were all still ok. it was fun actually n i improved :D 2nd day(fri) was not really a training but still it was like training since it is play full game and had to run alot and stuff. my legs on that day were then killing me. the first match i was alr very tired and couldnt run much thx to the warm up i did. lols. 2nd match arnd the ending then suddenly my energy boost and i created scoring chances and scored 2 goals. quite proud of myself but abit late. lol. i still need to train my ball control, dribbling, shooting. aiya almost everything la i sux. 3rd day street soccer in the morning as usual on saturday but that day we played quite slack, everyone was clowning hahaha lost badly to the other team but we didnt care cuz we were clowning all along. LOL. what made me tired on that day was GYM! i had to bring my fitness to the ultimate level so i had no choice but to do all those strength tough sets. 3 sets of 20 chin-ups, 4sets of 10 dips, 4 sets of 10 benchpress, 4 sets of 10 dumbell curve etc etc. but i realize my strength has improved ^^ i can do more weights now! :D all i have to do is to train my butt! my butt is fking small!!! WHY?!! i wan a nice perky firm ass then my body will look nicer! why am i so skinny too?!?!!? WHY!?!! EVEN THOUGH I EAT SO MUCH! FKED UP! DAMMIT! fked up man im so determined to get a nice body. ok gym was the one which made me have these muscle aches omg. today i had soccer drills again. my performance was bad cuz ive been tired... O YA almost forgot. Voyage De La vie WAS NICE! something like a circus show but it was nice! their bodies also very nice. masculine body,2 guys there had the body that i wanted..:(. envy*_*. the girls were dam HOT! ok i cant put wat i saw on blog here :X. btw their 6abs...omg were so fking toned! dammit! after that show at resort world, went to eat at chilis! i ate full rack ribs omg dam nice!! if im not wrong it costed arnd $40 but its ok since my sis paid xD juz kidding.

haizz i try not to think about her but i juz did.. im trying to not think of her/forget her cuz i know she dont care about me, she treats me like shit, she can juz go to her other guys for i care. yes, i get easily jealous..maybe it is best if im single? but if im single i will still emo alot... which sux cuz i dun wish to emo about her.. im thinkin of her but shes not thinking of me, that feeling sux, totally. In the next semester in RP, i wish i could meet that special someone.. i wish im handsome..i feel myself being so ugly..fk myself seriously. sry abt my low self esteem.. haizz i dun wan be emo but i guess i am now and quite cranky.. o well at least i updated my blog again. hope u enjoy reading it other than my emo part.

1:57 AM im in the AIR :D.

hmm i almost forgot to update once again. i want to change the background but i forgotten how. o well nvm.
past few days, ive been going out wit jorene, corin, wan him, ronald & his jia wen. Going out with them was fun :) i thank them for drowning away some of my sorrow. Because of them i stopped thinking about it, n i appreciate tat. Hiding my deep sorrow within with just the skin of happiness. Ok, i sound dam emo. STOP ERIC! NO EMO-ING FOR YOU! :D

OKOK! hmm let me remb what i did yest. O i remb! I pon school cuz it was programming and it was the right choice. Heard a lot of my classmates didnt turn up or partial too. lols. Oh! i watched a movie together with jorene! Inception! watched it again and it was still nice! 2nd time le hohoho! right, now for today... slept so late and had to wake up so early-.- was so tired in school especially during the 3rd meeting i fell asleep right in front of the faci when she was going through the 6p :X didnt mean to faci! sry! o i felt that my presentation was shit today again...fk that. after school, met up with wan him to go orchard tgt and meet shawn. went to my hse first to put down my things then when shawn's movie with someone^^ was over, off to far east. LOL! I HAD A SUDDEN MEMORY LAPSE WHEN I GOT TO ORCHARD! I SUDDENLY FORGOT HOW TO GO FAR EAST AND WENT ROUND & ROUND! lost in orchard -.- wth so embarrassing..went there so many times still can forget..fk my stm seriously. ok when we finally reached far east, i cut my hair! wanted to shave my sides and a moehawk but decided not to first..until holidays when no one can see me ;D so it was back to my previous hair. ate wanton mee at far east and i miss her so much :( i could still remb the table that we sat in... i still can remb exactly what we ordered. these are the memories i can never forget. OMG! im gna be broke soon! BUT! my mum is gna transfer money for me again YAY! love you mum! mum almost pissed me off when i was otw home but u needed help and i came to fetch you, you had to depend on me but i dont mind because im always depending on you like for example my allowance. Love u loads! :) <3>

OH!it's alr 12.30am. legs hurts, butt aching, sorethroat, but im still gna go for soccer today at 10am with frenz then gym at 5.30pm! gym...the place where i can train my body and where i can TRY to not think abt her...whenever i think of her, its like i hate her cuz she treat me like *poot* but im also loving her....therefore i'm trying my best to not think abt you and preventing myself to do the things i usually do. ok im gna stop. first time writing so much. cant believe i could remb almost everything. there are lots of things in my mind but..too much. k ciao.

Labels: cuz my heart aches, please stop treating me that way

12:10 AM im in the AIR :D.

woooo! guess what? im finally updating! okokok how to start... talk about yest? yea guess so. im answering myself...

ok. SO YESTERDAY, FUN! DONE! not! lol. okok serious now. so yesterday, corin, jorene, ronald, wanhim and me went to town together! such a funny and nice trip! :D me n ronald were especially crazy..as usual i guess.
going to town and going the places that we went, made me miss you so much. the times we had together, how i miss them. i could still remember and it is still vividly in my mind...:D

3:02 PM im in the AIR :D.

er...........................................................................................................i hav nothin to say. well at least updated rite??? RIGHT???? er.. ok im bored n i found out some freaky thing which i hate.. n i cant tell any1..seriously freaky... *trembles* ok cant get it out of my mind!! GET OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR ROAR!!!!!!!!!!! *SYSTEM ERROR* * ERIC HAS TEMPORARILY BROKE DOWN* AUTO SHUTDOWN *BEEP*

2:32 AM im in the AIR :D.

hey yoz ive updated my song!! btw the nice part of the songs is about at 1min i think.. its the part where its nice to shuffle so ya.... ok im not gna post much so bbz

4:43 PM im in the AIR :D.